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Name: Eugene Cha
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Charlotte
Birthday: 4/24/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: I love God, sports (in particular bowling, golf, football and basketball), music (I play guitar, bass and also sing), movies, games, puzzles, exercise, talking and hanging out with friends, meeting new people and of course, FOOD!!!!!
Expertise: I can wiggle my ears. I actually discovered this talent in grade school. I wanted to figure out how to push my glasses up without using my hand all the time because that gets annoying. So I tried to move them up, and discovered that I can move my ears. So laziness can be rewarding sometimes...
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1/16/2006
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| can the NFL please explain to me why santonio holmes DID NOT get a flag for using the football as a prop during his end zone celebration?...
this year the NFL made a rule that a player cannot use the ball as a prop, touch the ground, or celebrate in groups after scoring a TD. so please, explain to me how this rule all of a sudden got "overlooked" in the super bowl...
also, can the NFL please explain why the last fumble/incomplete pass with 5 seconds left WAS NOT officially reviewed? in the slow motion replay, it sure looked like warner managed to shot put the ball out of his hand. during the course of the season the NFL did review plays even though it was obvious that the refs had called it right, so why not take another look at that play? wouldn't you want to make sure the play was absolutely correct for the SUPER BOWL?...
there's been something fishy going on with the past 2 super bowls that the steelers have won. remember the steelers/seahawks game? i felt so bad for the seahawks. it's like everyone wanted the steelers to win that game so that bettis could retire with a super bowl ring. and now this game. sure it wasn't as bad as the seahawks game, but they did get a little help from the refs at the end...
goodell, please fix the NFL...
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| exhausted
when will i reach the top of this mountain
feet heavy, weight on shoulders, trudging in the snow
emotions erupt from deep within my soul
tears frozen to my face
hope lost long ago
what keeps me climbing i do not know
waiting for the sun to rise up
melt the exhaustion away
renew spirit and soul
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| i know it's been like FOREVER since my last update...i just want to let you all in on my life for the past 2.5 months...in the words of TO...get ur popcorn ready...it'll b good...i promise...
so roughly last october there was a girl who started coming to our church. i kind of developed an interest, but mostly kept it to myself. then she stopped coming for couple months and those feelings went away. then this past may, our church had a family retreat and she came to it. during the short 3 days, i got to get to know her well and those feelings came back. the day after the retreat i went over to her apartment for dinner (she is a beast cook), and we watched some korean shows then i went home. the next day we did the same thing, after i got home we talked on the phone for roughly 4 hours and decided to start a relationship...
my parents found out and my mom was not too happy. she did not like her because she was a student here with a visa, and she kept telling me that she is partly dating me so that she can get a citizenship. but, i didn't think much of it and we dated secretly, and of course, spent a LOT of time on the phone. then one day, my mom found out that i secretly went shopping with her at the mall. she got really angry and called her over to our house. we had a long talk, and we agreed to stay away from each other for 6 months so that we can really think and pray about it...
that lasted about 3 days, and we secretly started seeing each other again. we saw each other everyday and of course, still talked on the phone. my feelings for her kept growing, and things were going well. not to say that we never argued or had a hard time. she would get frustrated that we couldn't see each other whenever we wanted, and so was i, but that wasn't in our control...
last thursday was our 50th day, and apparently in korea, they celebrate it, so we decided to celebrate too. however, thursday was also the day i was supposed to leave for md for alex's bachelor party weekend. she was upset at first, but we still decided to atleast grab dinner before i left for md. this was all decided last sunday, so 4 days before our 50th day. i wanted to surprise her so i ordered a big pink teddy bear a week before to give to her as a present because she told me that she always wanted a huge teddy bear...
then tues-thurs, i couldn't talk much on the phone because i was running out of minutes, so we kept in touch after 9pm haha. however, when i called her she seemed to keep it short and acted a little weird. i didn't think much of it at first, and then came thursday, our 50th day...
after work i went to her place, and i saw her car parked so i went up to her apartment and waited there for her since she wasn't picking up the phone. then i saw her walking up the stairs and she sees me. she turns to someone and tells him to go back down cuz i'm up here. i don't see who it is, and she continues to go up the stairs and we get ready to leave. we head down back to the parking lot and the other guy is there. she introduces him to me as being a friend, then she takes him up to her apartment and lets him in before we left to celebrate...
we go to celebrate, but the sushi place we wanted to go to was closed so we just walked around the strip mall. the whole time, she seemed kind of distant. i give her the huge teddy bear, and told her that i loved her. she just smiled at me and told me to have a safe trip, and that we'll hang out after i get back...
the whole drive up i couldn't stop thinking about the whole situation, so i wasn't able to have a good time. i called her thurs night while driving up. again it was short. i called her fri night and it was another short call. then sat i decided to visit her before i went home, and i called when i got there. she came down and it was another short interaction and i went home...
sunday night, i couldn't take it anymore, so i decided to stake out her apartment. i went to her place and saw her car, so i parked several spots down. i got out and started to walk towards her building, but i see her walking to her car with that "friend" of hers, so i hide behind another car, and watch them drive off. i decided to check out a couple spots we used to hang out when we were secretly dating, but i couldn't find them. so i went back to her apartment and saw that her car wasn't there. i parked my car several spots down from her building and waited. this was around 1130pm. around 12am i see her walking to her building with him. they briefly stop in front of the entrance and talk cuz he was smoking. then i see them walking up the stairs together holding hands...
at that point, i felt like i got hit by a car. i had a huge adrenaline rush, and i wanted to run out and just attack the dude. but i didn't (which i kind of regret now haha) instead i left a note on her car windshield saying that i saw them together. i went home and i couldn't sleep at all that night. in the morning i sent a text message saying that i wanted to talk that day. she sent me another text saying that she was sorry, and that she will call me when she gets back from the beach with her friends...
this past monday and today has been tough for me. it was very up and down. sure enough she called me today around 10pm. monday and today i was told by my knowledgeable friends to not pick up her call, and to just forget it and drop it. that's what i decided to do, when she called, i didn't pick up. but i couldn't help it because there were so many questions i needed answers to, so i called back. we talked, well it was more like i talked, and she was silent. she didn't give direct answers to any of my questions. so we just hung up and said our goodbyes...
honestly, i wouldn't feel so bad if the guy was better than me. if he was smarter, handsomer, funnier, etc., i could live with that. however, i lost her to some trash guy. from my first impression, he was just a smoking and drinking gangster wanna be, and that's what hurt the most. but i guess on the other hand, she wasn't as good of a girl as i thought she was if she left me for someone like him...
anyways, that's been my life for the past 2.5 months...talk about a crazy FIRST relationship...like i said...better than a korean drama...if not...at least it's a korean drama played out in real life...i decided to post this on xanga for 2 reasons...1 to help me cope by writing it all out...and 2 because too many people go on facebook compared to xanga haha...
so i hope i provided you guys with some entertaining material. hopefully i can get over this quickly, although i don't know if i'll ever be ready to dive into another relationship. i feel like all is not lost though, because i did learn a lot about myself and about how to approach dating...
that's it for now, who knows when i'll update next haha...
until next time, be safe...
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